Personal Update: Work, Fashion, Boys & Lifestyle

In all honesty when I made this blog I really didn't intend to bring anything personal into it. I was solely going to focus on fashion posts. That's it. However, after learning about the successes of other people's blogs and how they've managed to captivate a global audience, I learnt that there is a clear key thread amongst (most) of these bloggers: personality. 

Don't worry, The Rebirth of Fashion is not going to turn into my personal therapy session at all, I wouldn't drag you through that hell. I just thought it would be nice to share some things that are going on in my life and in that warped head of mine, especially as the most personal posts seem to be engaging you guys the most. Let me know what you think of these and whether you would like to see a personal update every so often. All feedback is gold dust to me. 

You Better Work B*tch 

Yes, that subheading is there purely because I've been listening to a lotttt of Britney recently. I know it's really sad but there you go. Anyway, you may or may not have seen my guest post for The Blogger Network entitled 'Degree + Blog + Internship = Fashion Crisis or Fashion Miracle?' Everything I said was true. At one point I was trying to balance university work with two internships and a blog. As you can imagine, this all just got too much and I have reached a point in life where I just feel like I should be focusing on less and really putting my all into a couple of things and doing them well instead. 

So newsflash, I am no longer interning! It actually feels really weird not being an intern, I've gotten so used to having lots of tasks on my plate but in all honesty, I just need to focus on uni right now. That's not to say that I won't intern again, just not right now. I've been lucky to work with so many amazing people who have given me fab advice and have really taken me under the wing where I've been able to see the good, the bad and the ugly of the fashion industry. I cannot recommend interning enough if you are looking to get into the fashion industry, or any creative industry for that matter. Even a short month-long placement can teach you a lot, trust me! 

I've always been prone to forgetting my age and have always been called wise beyond my years or an 'old soul'. I somehow always identify myself as older than I am and for this reason I feel like the pressure to always be doing lots which simply does not have to be the case anymore. I have so much passion for blogging and writing that I want to collaborate more with specific brands, build my audience and post content more regularly. In order for all these steps to happen I have to really take a step back and think about how I'm managing all my time and where my energy is being focused. 

Hoodrat Realness

In terms of fashion I have gotten so incredibly lazy with style recently. Today I literally wore trainers. Like trainers with grey leggings and a black coat. I know this is obviously not the end of the world but it's not really like me, although I'm really embracing the casual look. In all honesty, if I'm going to dress up properly I better have a decent place to go to or some decent people to impress. If that's simply not the case why should I bother? 

I am so okay with wearing a Trapstar mesh top with leggings. I like being comfortable. Comfortable is GOOD! 

Not everything has to be statement necklaces and leather, sometimes it's good to be more relaxed. I guess I'm realising that a lot of people who ooze style are icons because they can pull on a loose-fit tee and jeans but still have that chic air about them that carries it off beautifully. Also I know that fashion is amazing but life goes beyond what people are wearing and it's okay to have an off day, let me tell you! My advice? If you're like me and have to know what you're wearing beforehand, try and have a day or two where you simply wake up and throw some stuff on. Anxiety much? It's not that bad.... is it? 

'No, I Don't Want to Join Tinder Again'

At present, I'm single. It's not exciting by any means but not depressing either.

I know I tend to throw shade a lot and this is not directed at anyone (cough) but in all honesty, I sometimes have a hard time with people who jump in and out of relationships like their lives depend on being with someone, especially at this age. I think romance is great and there are lots of couples who really make it work. I think everyone wants to find a companion at some stage, serious or not, just to have someone there to make life a bit better but the desperation to find a guy at this age (20) is just sad in my opinion. 

From what mentally unstable people I've been subjected to, I realise that it's definitely better to wait things out and keep busy on other parts of life. I'm just not here for the bullshit to keep it 100. 

So... My Diet Starts Tomorrow

There are times where I feel like I'm at the point of no return with my weight and that is simply not the case. I know that if I put in the effort, I can shift it but I have literally had no motivation recently. I went through a really good phase where I cut out all fizzy drinks and really paid attention to everything that was going into my body. I think my negative eating habits today are definitely reflective of my bad moods. I sound like I'm depressed all the time, don't I?

I do tend to comfort eat more than I should. When I don't feel emotionally stable or happy, I quite frankly don't care about pigging out on junk food. I always regret it later. I'm honestly so annoyed at myself but I have it in my head that I'm going to take it more seriously in three weeks (after I finish this semester). Let's see how that goes... 

I've never been slim as such but never 'fat' either. I'm at my worst now I would say. I look back at times where I was a size 12 and I thought I was big then but I really wish I could have had the mindset to preserve that figure. Unfortunately, when life puts lots of pressure on you in all directions, sometimes food choices just simply aren't top of the list. 

The good thing is that I am doing small things to help. I used to be a HUGE Diet Coke girl, like one a day, always. Now, I've practically cut it out.

I know I'm not the best at giving health and fitness advice but I would like to tell people in my position that it is possible to change slowly and to try and do things one step at a time. Cut down little by little instead of depriving yourself of one of your guilty pleasures and your body will adjust much better that way.